our stork was lost, but we found him!!!!…

infertility + 4 rounds of artificial insemination + in-vitro fertilization FINALLY = TWIN BOYS!!!!

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…what it’s like to want something so much that you can barely focus on anything else.

…how something as simple as a pregnancy announcement can feel like a punch in the gut.

…wondering if I’d ever quit being jealous of those who got pregnant so easily.

…how defeated and broken I felt every time a treatment cycle failed.

…the irony that was (and is) birth control.

…about the hundreds of pee sticks I went through, or the fact that I used to buy them in bulk.

…being sooooo jealous of pregnant bellies everywhere – even strangers.

…thinking that Jeff and I would never experience parenthood.

…the countless friends (both IRL and online) who supported us during our three-year battle with infertility.

…feeling helpless that some of those friends are now (or still) struggling themselves.

There is a reason behind this post, I just don’t feel like getting into it right now.

Kerry

December 8th, 2009

Becky Says:
December 8th, 2009 at 7:22 pm
Thanks for this… Things get so crazy sometimes that I forget how lucky I really am….

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Steph Says:
December 8th, 2009 at 9:03 pm
You are a good friend, all of these are reasons that you and Jeff can support people that are going through what you guys went through. You two had a tough journey and can probably understand more than most what people dealing with IF are going through! Thanks for reminding me to be thankful!

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Michele Says:
December 9th, 2009 at 9:27 am
Thank you for posting this and for remembering the struggle. I’ve followed your blog since before you got your BFP, but this is my first time commenting. I just wanted to tell you that I appreciate the fact that you can still relate to those of us still trying desperately to have a baby. The holiday season makes infertility particularly difficult, as I’m sure you know, and being able to see your success is helpful to me personally. I feel like you felt, that we’ll simply never have a child biologically, but I try to find hope through your posts. Thank you!

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