I'm scared.

Published by Kerry | Filed under Uncategorized

I had to leave work early today.

Today was the weirdest day.  I woke up feeling like complete crap.  I had to lay down several times while getting ready because I kept getting too hot and light-headed (it’s usually about 72 degrees in our house).  After standing in front of the mirror, crying, because I couldn’t fit into any of my jeans this morning (because of the bloat), I finally got ready (thanks to a strategically placed hair tie holding my jeans up), and headed to work.  When I got to work, all of a sudden I felt better (weird), and I was HUNGRY.  Really hungry.  Went down to the cafeteria with one of my friends, and EVERYTHING that is bad for me looked good – biscuits and gravy, pancakes, sausage and bacon, EVERYTHING.  The fruit bar, or anything related to it (ie – healthy stuff), did NOT sound good, which is very strange for me since I normally eat pretty healthy (reading into things much?).

Anyway, I ordered a bacon, spinach, onion, and mushroom omelet.  They were out of mushrooms.  Oh well, I tried being more healthy.  =)  I ate THE ENTIRE THING, which is seriously the most food I’ve eaten in one sitting since Monday.  I was so happy to finally be feeling better, and moreover, to have my appetite back (I missed it)!  Well, that feeling didn’t last long…about an hour after I ate it, I started feeling really, really sick again.  Like I was going to hurl.  And this feeling lasted pretty much all day long, until I finally gave in and left work an hour and 20 minutes before my shift ended.  My group is so great, they actually were begging me to go home since I looked so horrible.  Sorry guys!

On the way home, something scary happened.  I had this crazy intense cramping in my lower abdomen, and it lasted for about 10-15 seconds.  If I hadn’t been driving, I would have been doubled over in pain (even more than I was) .  My friend, who I carpool with, was a little freaked out by this, and thought I should call my doctor.  I promised to call if it happened again, but it didn’t (thank GOD).  I got home, put my comfies on, and layed on the couch with a heating pad first on my sore bum (I’m finally starting to bruise from these PIO shots), and then on my tummy.  Then, I fell asleep – for about three hours.  I’m still waking up, and I still feel like total crap.  I don’t feel like I’m going to hurl anymore, but I have ZERO appetite again, and I haven’t eaten in a single thing in almost 12 hours.

If pregnancy is anything like this, (for the first time) I will admit that I’m a little scared…

Kerry